:Ding dong bell:

i set my blog on a private mode so that it would give me sometime to try and give it a new layout, background yadayada.but alas, im just too too lazy.
so, how about white ppl? i like white. white is versatile.

so yeap.a new semester ahead.classes havent start yet, but it will , tomorrow.oh yeay!im excited. haha!what an effing nerd.(whom just screwd her previous exams apparently)
oh well, everyone has their moments right?

so so so, in the past few days i seem to have acquired some veery bad news and also some veery good news. uh huh, balance is what we strive for here.

anyway, the hardest part of a break up is, apparently, the fact that for a long time, when i'm sad or down or happy or anything at all, there's always this one person i always turn to.
not that i did not turn to anyone else too, but you know how it is, somedays i will tell this friend over here, and then somedays the other friend over there and maybe the next day someone else too. But whatever it is, i will tell this person too. And i tell him everything, everytime. He comforts me the best,you know. This had become some sort of a safety net for me- that no matter how bad my day was or how deep in trouble i seem to be, i knew that at least that person over there is well, there, at the end of the day.
Now that we've broken up and you know, of course i feel a lot of feelings that i wish i dont feel but i do anyway. And haih, i can't possibly run to that person anymore. No more safety net, no more the best kind of comfort. So yeah, a bit hard there. la la la.

Oh and then, another hard thing would be waking up in the morning. For the longest time, i woke up looking forward to msging or calling the other person. In fact, i still do that now, you know, wake up with a start and looking forward to wishing good morning. Only now, soon after the thought, the "oh, right.i can't anymore." comes.

crap.

But yeah, all in all it's nothing new. it's like this too for everyone, right?

I had this science teacher when i was in high school, his favorite thing to say was "life goes on".
That's Mr Gui. He's one of my favorite too.
I wonder how he is now.