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I

I have so many wonderful people surrounding me, sometimes more so than I deserve. This I know.

II

For everything given something else is always given back,with or without our knowing it- Try as we might to tilt the scale.

III

I've spread myself thin, tried to expand my capacity, hold myself out.

I still fall short.

I'm the imbalanced part of the equation.

Can't help but wonder what I'll end up paying with.

IV

Have I unknowingly begun paying.

Little rejections; minor abandonments; Alanis' "so unsexy".

One unreplied text, one unanswered phone call.

How is it that you never fail to make me feel like I am 13 again?

(favourite curse word)!!

Happy new year.