Hey,

Throw all your sorrows away and smile,
even for a while.

Because god knows you deserve it.
-whoever you are.

:)

::songs for studying::

Don't Know Why
Wish I could
Kingdom Come
Lost
Those Sweet Words
Girl From Ipanema
Be be Your Love
Strawberry Swing
Glosoli
The Hardest Part
My heart
Only Time
Take Me Somewhere Nice
Thinking About You
Fix You
Life in Technicolor
Nothing Like You and I
Milano

andddd...

Katy Perry! (ok.ini hanya bila sudah bosan study)

she has a very very interesting sense of dressing doesn't she?

makes us all seems like boring black and white in a land of Technicolor.

::out you go::

i prefer not knowing.

really.


so yeah, you can take everything and stuff them up yours!


oh and an advance wish:

a very happy new year everyone.

to everything that should be look forward to and everything that should be left behind~

Have a good new year :)

:: two cents worth::

0ver 290 civilians killed within 2 days.oh, and that's only on day 2.

Today is day 5, i think. So you can add more to the death toll.

even for someone as ignorant as me, this fact is hard to ignore.


It is impossible that the israeli force didn't foresee the amount of people- including kids, that it will kill and injure by launching the attack.

Even as i am typing this, more and more innocent people are killed and injured.


And yet, the world, me included. can only watch.

Oh yea, this is an excerpt taken from today's NST:

'As the fighting continued the White House signalled strong support for Israel. "The United States understands that Israel needs to take actions to defend itself," said spokesman Gordon Johndroe. "They are taking the steps that they feel are necessary to deal with the terrorist threat." '

For the lack of a better word,kepala hotak die. Taking the steps necessary?

Listen, is killing hundreds of innocent people a necessary step? The people they most want- the leaders of Hamas is proly safe and sound and protected anyway. These people always are. So why kill the innocents?
What differnce does these people- the ones who launch the attack, and who plans the attack and condones the attack-have against lets say, those millitants who blindly killed people in Mumbai. They killed innocent people to garner world attention right?So that people pay attention.

And these israeli force. They launch the attack and innocent people gets killed, for what? To get the hamas to back off right?

So how different are these people from the so-called militant who uses the innocents to get what they want?

And the amount of innocents that they kill!
already hundreds and its not even a week.
Does holocaust rings a bell anyone?

And nobody is doing anything. As usual.
Semuanya nak talk dulu.discuss dulu.talk.talk.
And then the number of people being killed is rising.rising.rising.

The attack, which is clearly and blatantly wrong and against humanity is happening in full view of the world.
And yet, world leaders are still trying to make sense of it-still trying to figure whether the israeli's attack is justified or not." Oh, lets discuss first and then let's decide whether the act is wrong or right."
What a bunch of cowheads.

If it's wrong.It's wrong. There's no two ways around it.
And killing innocent people, doesnt matter if its one or one thousand, is just wrong.
Doesn't matter what the outcome is. Doesn't matter who does it.Doesn't matter if it's done in retaliation.

And speaking of retaliation, killing almost 300 people in response to 1 death is a bit too much isn't it?
Not that, that one death does not matter. It does. But, is there not a better way of retaliation?
Stop being such a big dumb bully.

These people needs to read more enid blyton. The books have strong moral values that they seem to have successfully distort.

::of new year and nasty rashes::

Happy new year everyone~

that's new year for islamic calendar.

^_^

so, for the past two weeks i have this supposedly viral infection that causes nasty rashes on my neck,trunk and face.

oh dear.

well, the doctor thinks its a viral infection.i went to see three gps actually.
the first week, when the rashes was not so bad i went to see this one doctor just around my place, whose only comment was-ini bukan denggi. wth.
but to an extent, it was my fault.i should've insisted on a blood test.

and then when it got worse the following week (this week), i went to see another doctor who told me it might be eczema or psoriasis, but he cant be sure.i felt like crying.that thing lasts a lifetime as it will keep on re occurring and i'm talking about unsightly rashes at my face and not to mention the whole body.


so he referred me to a dermatologist at sjmc. So the following morning ejanne sent me to sjmc (sweetkan ejanne?!)BUT no dermatologists were in that day. wtf.

and.of course i was devastated. i mean, there i was with bloody itchy rashes all over my body and my face and i don't even know what it is. I mean, hey, if i at least know what it is that would be great.At least i would know what to do with it because anti-histamine do not effing work.


so, that night i went to see my aunty who is also a doctor.maybe she could refer me to other dermatologist.and she said, well that do not seem like psoriasis or eczema to me. that seems like a viral infection.and because anti histamine do not ease the itchiness and because i had sore throat the first two days that the rashes started to appear.So she said she'd do a blood test. but of course, it has been two weeks by then and of course, if it has been two weeks what do u expect to find huh?

haih.so today i think the rahses has stop spreading-not that there are much space left to spread to. But the itchiness has definitely subside a bit and them rashes are not as raised and not as red as before. So i hope it's just a viral infection and it is starting to heal.

Haih.i dont know. I would like to know what this is. I could go and see other doctors. but what can they do right? prescribe more anti-histamine,more calamine lotion, more emolient. One might go as far as to suggest a steroid shot. And i'm sure this is not an allergy.

I would like to go and see a dermatologist, in case this is really either eczema or psoriasis, but now that the thing is starting to subside, i have a strong feeling that it is just a viral infection. So seeing a dermatologist would be pointless.

However, if the rashes spread and still multiplies tomorrow, i'd definitely have to raise an alarm.
For now, seems like they're getting better. I think.


haih still.sedihlaa.
Imagine having rashes at ur face and neck and your whole body.spots and spots. Wouldnt you feel sad too?
And god knows how long it would take for the scars to disappear.
Shoot.sedih.sedih.
Dah lah tak tahu sebab ape.


wek.dah lah. malas nak stress. now i'm gonna do some reading and go to bed.

good night!~

:: Dream within a dream::

i have a research project to complete.
and today i went into haematology class knowing zilch about leukaemia.and went out just as blurry.oh and today, my groupmates and i spent about 3 hours trying to put in some drug names and their mechanism as well as the adverse and therapeutic effects into the lyrics of Pink's "So What".now the song is playing and playing in my head.It's so annoying!
so yea, you get the picture.
aside from school stuff, i have not gotten the chance to catch up with my readings. The last real book i read was John Connolly's The book of lost things. and that was a few months ago. Is a great book btw.

So, since i don't really have time to read novels, i now resort to poetry. I'm not much of a poem person though. It has always been hard for me to grasp the meaning of most poems. But once in a while, when i do get to grasp the meaning, or even catch a glimpse of what the poem is all about, it just reminds me of why i even bother to try and read them in the first place.

For this piece here, it took me three days to understand what it's about.usually i'd just give up and forget i ever read it.
But i'm glad i didn't. Because when i finally get it(parts of it anyway)., i just find it heartwrenchingly beautiful.


This is A Dream Within A Dream by Edgar Allan Poe.

A Dream
Within A Dream
by Edgar Allan Poe

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow—
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream;
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision, or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand-
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep,
While I weep— while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

-The End-

:: My favorite photo::

tagged by jamma~~

*************

do you think you're hot?
nope.not really.

upload a favourite pic of you..

i have a couple of fave pic of me..but none of them is just me alone. And in all those moments that the pics were taken, i was very very happy.

so, this is one of them:

this is kak nem's surprise baby shower.
Look ma, we were happy~
:D

why do you like this pic?
3 of my favorite peeps are in it. and we were having blast

when was the last tyme you ate pizza?

cant remember.but i know it was dominoes.

the last song u listen to?

You and I, on you tube. (ingrid michaelson and jason mraz).oh.suke gila lagu ni.

what name you prefer beside yours?

buddy! :)

people to tag:
ugh.this is the hard part.i dont know that many blogger.

1) Halimatun (perhaps u'd do this when ur back from germany)
2) Hannan (yang dah lama x update blog)
3) Faire!~
4) Hazel (im not sure if u even read my blog, but hehe. what the hell right?)
5) Hamami.

who is no 1:
ohhh!ini adalah the only celup in the world that i can put up with.in fact sy sayang die!

no 3 is having a relationship with?
oooh.alamak.she's in besancon.i dont know if she's in a relationship. are you faire??do tell~ :D

say something about no 5:
Si kurus yang patut makan weight gain! hehe.

how bout no 4?
i met her during a tution course in form 3!~

who is no 2 :
she's the busy hannan!~
just went and watch a play with her yesterday tho :)



.Fin.